Myfirst entry on this site. Though I have had many blogs in the past I prefer the formating on this site so I will stick with it.
Today was pretty uneventful, I was happy but then sarrow set in for no real reason except the need to remove happines. I know exactly why it happens but I just can't stop it from happening.
Oh well there is no point writing about it since there is nothing to fix it esides medications, which I would rather cut off my own hand than take. Maybe someday I'll be allowed to have true happines....until then I'll hold onto the little things that make me smile.
I am currently at the anime club by the way but I am ignoring the anime because it has loli in it and that reaks me out to no end. Kids in slutey clothing breaks my mind.
Oh I ran my first Dm session last night for D&D, it went fairly well. I was a bit nervouse at first but all in all it came out ok.
I sure hope Zev emails me soon....I miss him. We aren't even dating and I believe I have already fallen in love with him...but this scares me for I know it will end in hurt on my behalf...I'm used to it but I still don't want it to happen. Or at least that is my fear, I hope it doesn't end....I want to stay with him. I think Im getting ahead of myself I dive into things too fast we aren't even dating yet (If we ever do). He is just really sweet. He makes me feel human (or neko =^_^=). He is kind and caring, he writes godly poetry which I have the blessing of reading. I want to be his and I know it is too soon to be thinking these thoughts but I want security and I almost feel that in his arms I can have that....almost. Again I am getting ahead of myself I need to step back.
My sister's birthday party is tonight and they are taking over my basement...WHAT WILL I DO!!!!!!! I guess I'll have time to draw.
I wonder if anyone is reading this. I never told anyone the address and I don't think anyone cares enough to go look for it...Maybe it's better that way, I don't want people to have to listen to my wining about everything.
Oh wells I guess I am out for now.
Byes
it wasn't all that loli ... meow
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