Now you see me, now you don't.

I hate meeting people online. I always roleplay as a female and then when they find out I am technically a guy they just avoid me like the plague...It really hurts. Being a transexual is the most difficult thing I have ever dealt with acceptance wise. I just want to find a place where I belong....I'll probably be searching for the rest of my life.

I had a weird dream, Life was a dream and we were all just going to simply wake up and be someone else somewhere else. It is almost a pleasant idea...I wish I could just wake up and be away from all of this, but at the same time it is a really scary thought.

I got the no from Zev but it didn't hurt too much, I mean it still hurt as you would expect but he was really sweet about it and was genuinely being caring about it which I am not used to. I hope that maybe someday it will work but I won't get my hopes up. Whatever may happen I just hope he is happy in all he does.

Oh and it has been confirmed that my great aunt has lung cancer, but it operable which is a godsend. I really hope
Walter (her husband) is doing okay aswell. I think it is that time of year when everyone you know has death in the family. Nicole's grandmother died just recently. I really hope Nicole gets feeling better she seems really sad.

The arts coffee house is coming up and Andrew is coming. That more worries me than anything though due to scary kids bugging him. I am submitting my mosaic but I myself may not be attending. I am not sure if I really want to go and deal with everyone.

I watched a movie earlier called "Sublime" it is a great movie and I suggest it to everyone but no one with a weak stomach.