Bass

Dear blog, I'm a fuck up. I am sure by now you already realize this.. I am not really good at anything. My whole life I have just drifted from thing to thing on a whim trying to master something and be great... however I just lose interest in things so I am not really good at any single one. I am 19 and I pretty much suck at everything, that's my claim to fame. I would write a list of all the things I have commited to and given up on but the list would be FAR too long.


I would like to say this time is different but it isn't different at all. I picked up a base guitar and am trying to teach myself. I am not going to go on about how I am fully comitted or am going to be great someday because I feel it wil jynx it like all the other times. I just picked up a bass because of Sid Vicious. It started when I was looking up the Sex Pistols on youtube and I saw their bassist and his outstanding charisma overshadowed the rest of the band. I was amazed just looking at him so I naturaly looked him up and researched him. I wanted to have that confidence that he had. I quickly learned that Sid Vicious had emotional problems and needed lots of comfort when away from his Nancy, he was often compaired to a cat and would while away from Nancy lay his head on a certain male's lap for comfort. He also seemingly didn't care about anything and was a whimsy guy who did whatever he want whenever he pleased...however on the inside he was soft, he liked pain, and was generally a failure who killed himself when hhis love Nancy died....he couldn't even play the bass well at all. I was quickly infactuated with him for obvious reasons. The next day I believe is when I picked up a bass. See nothing special, I just related so I picked up the bass... I quickly learned to love the sound and now I genuinely love the sound.

I guess I am just writing all of this to document it. That way if I fail at bass then it is just another documented case of me failing and I can feel bad... What a lame blog entry. Oh my sister is in the hospital...I don't want to write about that though. Not right now, maybe later tonight I'll blog again.