Home is where she is

So things have taken a huge twist. This will be the best and most exciting blog I have ever written... I wonder how long it will be... Anyway so I have blogged about my beloved Mistress who I still cannot name :( (eventually) Well her husband was threatening to kill me if I went down to be with her. At first she didn't believe him even though I told her he was serious... but a while ago he sent me some emails saying if I went down there he would kill me. She always promised that if he was ever a threat to me that she would leave with me and protect me because she truly cares... I believed her but I was still somewhat uncertain...until it actualy happened. She was shocked at the emails and was growing more angry with her husband trying to pull her from me... so now after he said he would kill me... she is getting a divorce and fleeing America to be here with me... her pet... She will be arriving in MUCH less than a month... I am shocked, no one has ever done something so extreme for me... no one has ever cared even CLOSE to as much as she does... I am amazed and so happy. I keep thinking of all the things we will be able to do here and how she won't have to worry about money again because I have a stable living situation... I don't have to worry about hiding behind closed doors or worrying about her husband murdering me (though I'll be cautious for a while) We can be as close as we want and I will be hers in person... she will meet my family, friends, and everyone else on this island.. everyone will know that I am hers and how devoted we are... The odds are against us having only known each other for 3 months... but I have grown closer to her than I have anyone. I am determined to make this work and will do whatever I have to so that I can spend the rest of my entire life with her and only her. I want no one else.

I have to say though... I do feel bad for her and her husband seperating... I know it wasn't my fault and that it was likely inevitable and at least now she is happy but loving her and knowing how much I would die if she was to leave me makes me feel for her husband... but then I think of the little amount of time he spent with her and it makes me feel better because I will never do that. I guess I can let the other secret out now also... I am engaged... I have no ring or mark to show it but I was proposed to by her... She sais a mirage between the two of us can never happen which I can live with. The idea of mirage is appealing but bland at the same time... maybe with the bond we have it will be easier and more soulful but if it never happens I will be happy to just be with her...oh and by the way...I know I am rambling. Thanks for reading regardless. I will compose myself later.

It's nice that I get to stay here and can stay at my current job and try to advance as I do enjoy my job. I can provide for her until she get's a visa and even then we will still provide for eachother. It is hard to think right now as I am at work and in work mode but I had to blog about this as it is the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me. I could go on forever about all the possabilities and all the things we could do but I digress. I will have to blog about them all individually as they happen... No longer is home where the blog is.... but home will be wherever she is... home will finally be here.

For once, I am truly happy

Thank you

My Truth

What beauty we have in this world that shineth upon my once blind eyes
I thought I had seen the world for what it was, however it is now for the first time
As I gaze upon you I see the reflection of all dreams I thought never to come to light
The precious existance I never held dear I now find meaning to keep in your arms

For what is my life without the purpose of being in yours
Pain I once could not bare sliding off my shoulder- a cheap robe now seeming petty
Clutching my heart now for the first time realizing the pain felt for the first time
...but your hand is already there offering soothing comfort... making it all go away

Tears fill my eyes, looking into the soul of my savior as she places her hand upon mine
knowing now where I belong... a home I always longed for... was waiting for me..
Knowing now that all those nights of dreaming... they weren't dreams...
Truth finally dawning like a golden sun... you were always there...I was just waiting

Looking through everything I have written... seeing you in everything...knowing
it was always you... I knew about you... and you saved me.... even back then... you were there

If I write any more my eyes will become a desert.... It's not my best...but it's my most true.... This is an update on my life...this describes it better than any other words I could write

To My Owner. To the one who took my life in her hands and saved me... I am eternally grateful and will live my life to bring warmth and love to you.

I am yours

Yuma

I am blogging at work... I don't know what they will think of this but oh well might as well try.// Okay so "//" is now code for me having a break in typing usually by a call which just happened

So things are only getting more and more intense...and difficult, but as I am told it will be worth it in the end. My parent's found out about my palans to move to Texas to be with who I am now for the purpose of anonymity "master" as it is also an apropriate title as she is my owner and master.