So it's been a while. since I wrote anything but it's been recommended to me that I keep a blog of the goings on in my now very odd life (as if it wasn't odd before) This blog may become depressing at times so anyone who is reading it should be aware that this could happen.
So last week I was contemplating suicide very often and having terrible mood swings. I decided enough was enough. During a moment of level headedness I emailed my therapist and told her about my crisis and my fear for my life. She reccomended going to the ER if I felt I was in danger. So I did just that and 9 hours later after multiple psychiatric evaluations I was being perscribed medication for Bipolar disorder.... Since then life has only gotten stranger
I have not "officially" been diagnosed with bipolar but I am being treated for it. These drugs put me in a haze and cause me to forget things. I feel docile and weak to sum it up... but I don't mind. I don't have anyone I can call if I'm at my witts end... there is no one to save me. These pills are my salvation to put it dramatically.
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